What’s that feeling where you miss someone but…

Even to this moment it feels like I just ought to dial his number and tell him that I feel weak without him. I feel that his void has made my life terrible; not knowing where I would narrow my life and just get sunk. I want him to know that I am not doing good and have lost something that mattered the most to me.

I miss him in person! That person I fell head over heels in love with!

The guy who I assumed to be my magic wand, my strength, my happiness, my ray of hope! I feel worthless at times to have let him go, when I say this, i mean it genuinely!

Argghh!

No matter how much I fake that it doesn’t bother me; it bothers me even more. The thought of losing something that I have been treasuring dearly all my life. Trust me, it sucks.But the thought of wanting him back is something I will not give a second thought to. I do not have the will or the strength to have make this a repeat telecast in life. It happened once and I still sense my heart feel weak. Never again.

It’s OK to take as much time as you need to grieve. When it comes to getting over an ex, everyone goes at his or her own pace. In reality, sometimes we never completely get over someone, but that’s life. We just have to make peace with it, accept it and keep living our lives, even if it means that person isn’t there to be a part of it.

It’s alright even if it hurts a little more, I shall take this grieve to grave rather than making it a transparent weakness in life.

HEART GIVEN AND BROKEN. First love….

Missing someone….

You would find ever second of the day like an year without them…
Even things you love to do start to seem boring…
Whenever you look smiling at the mirror..the mirror laughs at you seeing you hiding tears behind your smile…
You even find it difficult to breathe with their thoughts…
You even end up spending sleepless nights thinking of them….
The desire to talk to them is on high!!!
You count on days to meet them…and eagerly wait for that moment to get back to them..
Whatever you do… they’ll always be on the back of your mind…. Infact, everything you do reminds of them…
You try to control yourself when you find it really difficult to stay without them…thinking you’ll be together soon…
Reading all this…..!! Yes…you miss them more than you actually think!!!! 

Why do I miss someone who doesn’t care about me?

Because you are likely attracted to them in some way. In your mind, even subconsciously, you have thought about “what if”.

What if he and I were together? What if we started dating? You don’t actually miss the person who doesn’t care about you… you are missing your vision of what you wish you could have with them because you are attracted to them.

That is very normal and yes, can be very annoying to not get them out of your mind. Just know that this will pass in time and he will eventually be just a pleasant memory.

The best way to move on is tell yourself what you already know…he is not likely ever going to care about you in the way you wish so you should see what else is out there.

Check out other people you are attracted to.

Focus on living life, on getting to know new people, getting to know people you already know… except better, try new things, be more involved, etc. When you do this you will show your individuality, confidence, outgoing side and who knows, you may just grab his attention but don’t look for it because you may miss the much better option that will also be drawn to you.

Be you and your dream person will find you themselves. Don’t waste time agonizing over and missing the picture of someone you have built in your mind but live life and find the real deal in your experiences.